Hoy me voy a dormir feliz

En medio de las lágrimas escribo esto. Pero antes de empezar, creo que es necesario un poco de contexto. Hoy, Claudia López fue elegida como la alcaldesa de Bogotá. 
Por eso, hoy estoy conmovida y emocionada de ver, por primera vez, a una mujer como alcaldesa de mi ciudad. Me emociono por todas las mujeres, jóvenes y niñas que sueñan a lo grande y que han escuchado expresiones por el estilo de: "Una mujer nunca va a llegar hasta allá". Me emociono porque ahora van a tener un modelo a seguir y van a ver que sí, que se puede llegar hasta allá, e incluso más lejos. Me emociona ver en ese cargo además de una mujer, a una feminista, a una mujer diversa. A una mujer que no nació con un apellido Santos, Uribe o Galán. Una mujer de clase media. Me conmueve saber lo que es sentirme representada.

Obviamente hay cosas de ella que no me encantan, pero prefiero quedarme con lo que nos une. Obviamente sé que hay muchísimo por cambiar, pero creo que este es un muy buen paso. Siento que es un respiro, algo necesitado.

Además, hoy fui jurado de votación. Me voy a dormir satisfecha, sintiendo que cumplí con mi deber.

Por esto, hoy me voy a dormir feliz.

In a year

This is the kinda thing you usually write the last day of the year, but I'm having a kind of introspective day, I guess? I keep looking back on all that's happened in the last 12 months and I guess I wanna write it down so maybe a few years down the line I come back and look at all that's happened.

A year. 

Lots of things were happening at my old job on October '18. It was all about adapting.
I was getting ready to say goodbye to a friend I made at that job so it was a month full of feelings.
I liked someone. A lot.
Started doing something I had never done before at my job. The goal? To prove to myself, to my boss and to basically everyone that I could do it and I did it.
Things didn't work out with the someone previously mentioned and I might have cried one or twice. Oh well.
Lost a job I didn't even have but I wanted it. So bad. What a letdown that was.
Met someone else and fell in love. It didn't work out. And yes, this time I cried a lot. Sometimes I still do.
Almost lost my grandma. Cried like a baby after seeing her in the ICU. Asked God to end her suffering. She's so much better now. The moments I share with her now are very precious.
Started a new job doing something I had never done before. This time the challenge felt harder.
Went to a music festival. So exhausting. So fucking fun. 10/10 would do it all over again.
Started studying French too.
Allowed myself to open up, to feel. To let myself be carried away by the sadness. Learned to be so fucking grateful for my friends. For the laughter.
I got broken. And I broke myself. But here I am, trying to put back the pieces.
Here I am, astonished by everything that's happened in a year and curious and scared about all that could happen in the next year too.

The book of the month

 

Title: Shiny Broken Pieces
Authors: Sona Charaipotra & Dhonielle Clayton
Published: July 12th 2016 by HarperCollins

In the second and final book of the Tiny Pretty Things story it's the final year for June, Bette and Giselle in the American Ballet Company. Everyone in the class wants a place in the Conservatory but only four are going to make it. After what was done to Gigi in the first book she is out for blood. Bette only wants to reclaim her place and June, who struggles with her eating disorder, just wants to be the best. 

 My Musings 

I realize how vague this "summary" was, lmao. But if you haven't even read the book I can't go and spoil everything now, can I? I did think I had to mention the eating dissorder, as a warning.

I can't stop thinking about this story so I had to write about it - Monsters of Verity

I know, I know. I am the worst blogger. You probably haven't missed me but I have definitely given myself a lot of shit for not posting for over a year. And the reason for this post is because I promised to myself I would either write a post or make a video and I don't own a camera so here we are.

I can't put off this any longer to be honest. So let's get to it, here are my thoughts on Monsters of Verity: This Savage Song and Our Dark Duet.

This story is about two characters: Kate and August. Both part of a different side of Verity, this city invaded by monsters. So there are two sides: North City and South City and each is governed by their parents. Callum Harker leads the North and Henry Flynn the South, with a treaty that could break any minute. Kate and August want very different things in life. She, a human, wants her father's approval and to be as tough as him. He, the strongest and deadliest kind of monster there is, just wants to be human. What will happen when their paths meet and Kate finds out the truth about him? Will she follow what she's been told her entire life? Or will she try to escape with him after he saves her life? 

My Musings 

That was my attempt at giving you a sneak peak of the story and hopefully make you want to read it.

One of the hardest books I've read

Title: It Ends With Us
Author: Colleen Hoover
Published: August 2nd 2016 by Atria Books

Lily hasn’t always had it easy, but that’s never stopped her from working hard for the life she wants. She’s come a long way from the small town in Maine where she grew up—she graduated from college, moved to Boston, and started her own business. So when she feels a spark with a gorgeous neurosurgeon named Ryle Kincaid, everything in Lily’s life suddenly seems almost too good to be true.
Ryle is assertive, stubborn, maybe even a little arrogant. He’s also sensitive, brilliant, and has a total soft spot for Lily. And the way he looks in scrubs certainly doesn’t hurt. Lily can’t get him out of her head. But Ryle’s complete aversion to relationships is disturbing. Even as Lily finds herself becoming the exception to his “no dating” rule, she can’t help but wonder what made him that way in the first place.
As questions about her new relationship overwhelm her, so do thoughts of Atlas Corrigan—her first love and a link to the past she left behind. He was her kindred spirit, her protector. When Atlas suddenly reappears, everything Lily has built with Ryle is threatened.

My Musings 

I didn't really want to write a review on this book because I don't think I could do it justice. I mean I haven't rated it on Goodreads yet. But I finished it two hours ago and I just can't stop texting my friend Floozy about it. There are too many thoughts and feelings on this story. 

How dare you?!

Title: A Gathering of Shadows
Author: V.E. Schwab
Published: February 23rd, 2016 by Tor Books. 

It has been four months since a mysterious obsidian stone fell into Kell's possession. Four months since his path crossed with Delilah Bard. Four months since Prince Rhy was wounded, and since the nefarious Dane twins of White London fell, and four months since the stone was cast with Holland's dying body through the rift – back into Black London.
Now, restless after having given up his smuggling habit, Kell is visited by dreams of ominous magical events, waking only to think of Lila, who disappeared from the docks as she always meant to do. As Red London finalizes preparations for the Element Games – an extravagant international competition of magic meant to entertain and keep healthy the ties between neighboring countries – a certain pirate ship draws closer, carrying old friends back into port.
And while Red London is caught up in the pageantry and thrills of the Games, another London is coming back to life. After all, a shadow that was gone in the night will reappear in the morning. But the balance of magic is ever perilous, and for one city to flourish, another London must fall.

My Musings

V.E Schwab, how dare you do this to me?! Yes I am talking to you, author of A Gathering of Shadows.

Losing Hope by Colleen Hoover

Title: Losing Hope

Author: Colleen Hoover

Published: July 8th, 2013 by Atria Books.

In the follow-up to Colleen Hoover’s #1 New York Times bestseller Hopeless, the charming and irresistible Dean Holder tells the passionate story that has melted thousands of hearts. In Hopeless, Sky left no secret unearthed, no feeling unshared, and no memory forgotten, but Holder’s past remained a mystery. Still haunted by the little girl he let walk away, Holder has spent his entire life searching for her in an attempt to finally rid himself of the crushing guilt he has felt for years. But he could not have anticipated that the moment they reconnect, even greater remorse would overwhelm him… Sometimes in life, if we wish to move forward, we must first dig deep into our past and make amends. In Losing Hope, bestselling author Colleen Hoover reveals what was going on inside Holder’s head during all those hopeless moments—and whether he can gain the peace he desperately needs.

My Musings

Another great book by Colleen Hoover. It had been on my TBR list for a long time and after reading Ugly Love and then The Lunar Chronicles I was in the mood for contemporary. It was really good to read this story again, but this time from Holder's point of view and it's always nice to 'see' the intentions behind the other characters' actions. The book starts with a slap to the face, one of those moments that make you think "this can't be happening", and you can't help but feel for the characters and continue reading, you are instantly hooked.